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Happy Three Year Farm-iversary!
Three years of growth for Red Bell Farms
Time and Change
Time flies. Literally. And the more you want it to slow down, the faster it seems to go. Time also makes things change. And the more you want things to say the same, the faster they seem to change. It is both a sad and beautiful process.
Year three was just as crazy as year one and two, but for many different reasons. Roo finally found himself a new home! I tried. I tried my hardest too ride him, and get along with him, and figure out why that horse was not clicking with me. But I think what it finally boiled down to was he was not happy at my farm. And after my last fall, and concussion, it was time for him to move on permanently. He was the last piece of my unhappiness, a source of frustration, that wasn’t his fault. And while I miss him, and always will, he needed to leave.
Always Thank Your Pony
Don’t be sad for me, or for Roo. He is very happy in his new home, playing jumper and hunter pony. And I have to thank him. I learned so much from that little gelding. I will cherish every lesson, and use them to help me with my next challenging horse. Always thank your pony.
Speaking of new ponies! The farm has a new pony. His name is Comanche, though I prefer to call him Chi-Chi’s. He is the cutest little stinker! Over jumps, but is lazy. I have never had to work so hard to get a horse to gallop cross country. But he greats me at the gate, and loves to get his ears scratched, so the pony can stay. But don’t worry… Elvis is still the love of my life! According to Kasey, he is a unicorn, and I have to agree.
The Old is New Again
Year three brought another new instructor. The jumper has since left (a long story for another time). There is a great story behind how Tina ended up teaching at my barn. I am back to my eventing roots and I couldn’t be happier. She came back into my life in a time that I needed a push. The good kind of push that only a riding instructor that you respect, but also that strikes a bit of fear into you can give. She has pushed me to be more organized. She has pushed me to teach my kids better. She has pushed me to ride more. She compliments me when I deserve it, but smirks at me and lets me know when I need to step up my game. Thank you Tina.
Divorce and Dating
My divorce is final. Wow. It is still as shock every time I say it or see it written down. The farm has become such a part of my life that I can’t believe it has only been three years. I feel like this is where I am meant to be and that I have lived here forever. However the divorce still seems unreal. Like I am going to wake up one day and will have all been a nightmare. I get asked a lot if I miss him. And I do! And I don’t care if he reads this. I miss the good him. The man I fell in love with. My best friend. I don’t miss what we were at the end. He is dating again, they are even Facebook official and I am very happy for him. I will always love him, he is the father of my child after all. And lets face it…. Kasey is the most amazing thing in the world.
Dating. Oh the world of online dating. That is a million separate posts that I plan on continuing to post about. Ok, maybe not a million, what do you all take me for? I have to say though I am proud of myself! Just like with Roo, I got bucked off, tried my best, got back on, but also learned when to let go. The Farmer is no longer in my life, but it is truly for the best. We wanted to very different things out of our relationship, and I am glad we came to that conclusion before we made a long term mistake.
More Change… And I can’t Wait
There is more change coming. Some that I am choosing, and some that is out of my control. Either way I am stronger than ever, which varies in intensity each day. But I have come to accept that I am not super women… most days.
Here’s to the future. Cheers!